Cinco De Death 5K

I’m baaaaaaaackkk!! I hope you all missed me! Yesterday I ran Millennium Running’s Cinco De Miles 5k. I have officially renamed it to the Cinco De Death 5k. As soon as the race started, I knew I was in trouble. My legs felt like lead and every step sent a shooting pain straight to my brain. I’m pretty sure the combo of allergies, poor pre-race food, and lack of running prep lead to my lackluster performance. I finished in 39 minutes. Which is my slowest 5k to date. But hey, I finished.

I’m at the point where I need to make some serious workout choices. I work out at The Training Station with my trainer Christina. We focus on a lot of weight training (suns out guns out, all day errday) but in an effort to be more budget savvy I’m going to be doing kickboxing / TRX classes 5-6 days a week. This is in an effort to save some money and also get a killer workout in every day. I’m okay working out on my own I just don’t push myself as much as I should.

However, TRX / Boxing don’t mesh well with running. So I’m going to take a break. Running is killing me. My legs always hurt, I’m sore all over, and I don’t really need to seriously start training until July. So for now, I will run when I want to run and get serious about training for the 1/2 marathon come July. I still want to do the 1/2 marathon but I don’t want it to cut into my overall fitness goals.

In other news I made a life plan, pulled myself out of a hole of self pity and wallowing, and once again re-motivated myself about life. Being a 20-something is rough. Between bills, finances, being a grown up, figuring out your life, and trying to exist it can be quite overwhelming. But I’m getting better at “reeling it in.” I think “reeling it in,” is my saying of the month. I’ve said it a lot lately.

Now that it’s not a barren tundra outside I’m looking forward to more outdoor activities. What have you all been up to in my absence? Also any running inspiration would be greatly appreciated.

Know Your Worth

We all feel the pressures of day to day life. Many times we make decisions that are not always in the best interest for ourselves. They are made in the interest of being able to pay your bills, support yourself, or just get through another day. But I think everyone reaches a point where they start to evaluate if all the hustle and struggle we put ourselves through is really worth it? Many times this thought pops up at a time of crisis, when it’s almost too late to start making a decision that is truly the best for you.

Lately, I have been struggling with this. I am in a very challenging place in my life right now. I’m left to evaluate what I feel I am worth versus how I am being treated. This is across many facets of my life. To do what is best for me and what I feel is best for my own perceived self-worth, involves some not so fun conversations. But sometimes you just have to bite the bullet and rip off the band aid and do what is best for you.

I apologize to anyone (aka the 40 people a day) who read this blog for not being present here. But I need to take the next few days or weeks or however long it is, to get to a place where I feel I am truly being valued for what I bring to the table. I think everyone should reflect and figure out what their self-worth is. It’s important to know and remember so you don’t get lost in the day to day shuffle of life.

What makes me happy, is working out and seeing results. Surrounding myself with people who genuinely like me for me and not some way I act. Spending time with my family. Finally planning a vacation that’s long overdue. Advancing my skill set and actually using the skills I learned in college. Blogging makes me happy but I can’t blog when I’m so confuddled in the rest of my life. So this isn’t an end to the blog it’s hitting the pause button. Once I’m in a clearer mindset, I’ll have more to blog about.

This blog was super depressing but had to be written. I hope you all at least think about what your own self-worth is for a few minutes after reading this. I’ll be back soon!

A Vegetarian Vegan Quarter Life Crisis

I should not be allowed to watch documentaries. Ever. Especially ones about veganism. Last night I watched Vegucated. It’s a 2011 documentary about being a vegan. It has officially thrown me for a LOOP. As you all know, I buy free range, organic, all natural, local as much as possible. What I took away most from this documentary is that those terms really don’t provide as much of a better life for the animal as we think. So now I’m faced with a huge dilemma. I love animals, probably more than a normal 20-something female. But I also love eating animals. That’s sounds so horrific to say but I do like chicken and the occasional burger / steak. That being said I’ve spent all day in a total life crisis.

Seriously guys, I went as far to sponsor a goose on an animal sanctuary farm in upstate New York. This farm basically saves animals that would normally be killed at a slaughter farm and lets them live out their lives happily. I’ve officially lost it. You don’t have to tell me.

So I’ve been pondering all day about what to do. I’ve come to the decision that I don’t have an issues eating an animal product if it comes from a place where the animals live(d) in a happy environment. A free range chicken at a commercial company is only given 3 square feet of space. I don’t want chicken that was still confined to 3 square feet a day nor do I want it’s eggs. But I think I’d be okay with chicken that was able to wander around a pasture all day.

This sounds hypocritical of me. But I can’t justify giving up animal products completely. I mean I’d die without chocolate milk. Or at least I can’t justify giving up animal products yet. I’m going to actively try and seek out local farms with animal products like milk, eggs, and meat. If I can find a place that’s legit and I feel like doesn’t abuse animals (beyond what has to happen for me to grill dinner), I’ll stick with the animal products. If I can’t find a place like this, I may seriously have to evaluate animals in my life.

If you are a vegetarian / vegan that is reading this, please don’t hate on me. I’m trying to go about this in a way that I can justify my personal belief on animal treatment while balancing a diet that works for me.